This article employs the Bosnian notion of “inat,” often translated as spite, to perform auto(bio)psy of my writing about refugee lives in Sweden. Methodologically speaking, I begin with an assertion that the hybrid form of auto(bio)psy, a method that entangles creative and critical reflection, helps capture what it means to live with the traumas of war, especially in the face of genocide denial and genocide triumphalism. The value of such a reflection that is neither entirely academic nor entirely artistic, neither a court testimony nor data gathered by a disinterested scholar, lies in the possibility of accessing truths that are as material and as emotional as they can be and hopefully, help us better understand uprooted families from 1990s Bosnia and beyond. Following Wendy Pearlman, I argue for the value of emotional sensibility for more profound scientific discoveries. Furthermore, I argue for the need to reconsider the form-content question in the scholarly understanding and analyses of displacement.

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真实、善良、恶意：对瑞典波斯尼亚难民经历的尸检

本文采用波斯尼亚语“inat”（通常翻译为恶意）的概念，对我关于瑞典难民生活的写作进行自检（活检）。从方法论上来说，我首先断言，自检（活检）的混合形式，一种结合创造性和批判性反思的方法，有助于捕捉在战争创伤中生活的意义，特别是在面对种族灭绝否认和种族灭绝的情况下必胜主义。这种反思既不完全是学术性的，也不完全是艺术性的，既不是法庭证词，也不是无私的学者收集的数据，其价值在于有可能获得尽可能物质和情感的真相，并希望能够帮助我们更好地了解 20 世纪 90 年代波斯尼亚及以后的背井离乡家庭。继温迪·皮尔曼之后，我主张情感敏感性对于更深刻的科学发现的价值。此外，我认为在对流离失所的学术理解和分析中，有必要重新考虑形式与内容的问题。